Its a matter of......
Our Director at ABS would always stress that we live in a
'choiceless world'. At that time I doubt if many of us understood the significance of his words. For us it was just another jargon. But still the guy would emphasise it time & again until it got imprinted in our minds. Now as I look back & retrospect, realize how golden his words were. That was a general message, to make it effective, you need to customize & mould it to find out what works for you.
Life is about making choices. But what makes the difference is
making the right choices.I stand once again on a such an intersection in my life where I need to make a very important decision. Its not like life or death situation but the outcome of the same could affect my life vastly. Need to be careful.
Here is the gameplan:
For the first time in my life (honest) I have really, really been mezmerised by a damsel. Its just her aura that keeps hounding & pounding me; all day through. I used to spend my time just admiring her even during my final sem papers (do it even more so now). Trust me, it seemeds all worth it & not just whiling away of time. It took me a while though before I was absolutely certain of my feelings. By that time it was time for me to leave. I had made up my mind, come what may before going to Mumbai let me just speak my heart before her. What ever happens hence forth, would be her take. Somehow when I picked up the phone to call her up, deep inside I didn't feel right. Something told me, it was not the appropraite. Well then you shouldn't do things for the sake of it. Hence I left for Mumabi without letting my feelings out. At that point of time I had no hope of talking to her again let alone seeing her.
But as it was to be, I was posted in Delhi for my training. Things worked out for me & the girl of my dreams now stands
BESIDE me. It all seems so magical. I was so meant to be. But life is a maze, which never fails to amaze.
Mumbai is the city for dreamers like me. It presents you with an opportunity to fullfill your dreams. There is something about that city that pulls me towards it. Somehow, I am able to relate to it. Under normal circumstances given with an opportuntiy to be there, I would have grabbed it with both hands. But now things are different. I am like cut into half, with one part wanting to stay behind & the other one pressing to persue my dreams.
I am at a complete loss as to what to do. I need to make a choice & I did. All it took was a bit of self-intrpospection & a phone call from her. She had never really accepted my feelings verbally. All she said holding my hands was actions speak louder than words. Till now it was like a fairy tale for me. Now had my tryst with reality. Relationships based on any thing other than honesty & trust are like like houses made of sand. They are likely to break sooner than later. Its about meeting of the minds of two people which ultimately results in meeting of their hearts. It does happen overnight, but an insatant is all it takes to realise. Let us see how & when it happens, for love has a meaning only when it is reciprocated.
As of now I have a career plan chartered for myself which is the
priority. Its bigger than me, my very existence depends on it. Come what may I will achieve it.
dare to dream
I have been a dreamer all my life. Its nice to cherish a longing desire. Fantasies that elude you otherwise can be seen being fullfilled while you are in deep slumber. The truth though remains that they are dreams, not reality. All great people have affirmed the pathway of success begins with envisioning your goal. So like all these visionaries most of us set our goals & targets. Then why don't all of achieve them.
'You are always remebered for hitting the target, not for aiming at it.'Yes for starters one must set himself for the challenge, but when faced with a daunting task we fade away. Its easy to give advice, philosophize; in short give fundas. But in the end it all boils down to whether you can
deliver. Potential & promise are of no use if not channelized properly. It is the performance that counts at the end of the day.
Let me quote an instance for you:It was during my college days. We were awaiting our results for the university exams. There was this girl who had scored the same marks as me. I was crossed, not because she had scored the same marks as me but the huge difference in the manner in which we had achieved them.
. She had cheated but the mark sheet didn't reveal it. For the world she was at par with me. It send me into a tizzy, I wondered if the means inconsequential as long as the objective is achieved. Three years later I got my answer(yes that's how long it took). Marks are only a reflection of your ability. It may be a mirage or reality. But can anyone take away from you the knowledge, the experience, the wisdom you gain on account of your hardwork. Thats your earning & it pays you in some from or the other in the run called 'life'.
Now to the second part of the discussion. Once you know where to go, the hard part begins.
How to reach there? Now most of us get lost here. You can face challenges, counter obstructions but only when know the path. All our zeal & enthusiasm fades away if we traverse the wrong way. No one but you know the answer to it. How many times have we heard,'
Its my life, let me decide'. Now then, this is argubly the most crucial decesion that you have to make in your life. Make it yourself, to make it well.
Believe in yourself & the world will belive in you. There is no mantra for success (if you know one please let me know). Its what works for you. Let me be candid, we all are not the same. We have different mindsets, varied levels of knowledge & understanding etc. So there cannot be a standard approach which suits all. Smart people device their own ways of functioning. Their own unique style. All of us have our own strengths, leverage on them. If you don't enjoy your work, you don't have a passion for it; its unlikely that you will succeed. Life can be very dull & boring without that elusive victory. Take things in your stride, ups & downs are inevitable.
If you believe you can, then you will.
chahat
Its phenomenal, if you are destined for something, you get it. I would have never thought in my wildest of dreams that such a thing would happen to me. Life is certainly one up on our imagination. Truth may belie all our expectations.
I was in my third semister of MBA. Perhaps it was one the gloomiest period of my stint at Amity. I was fighting a battle of my own, it seemed my entire life had come to a standstill. I had forgotten how to even smile. The uncertainity in my life kept peeving into my head. It was then I ran into a seemingly
ordinary junior. It was what I said or the way I said it that she didn't like. She termed me as 'rude', I had many pressing issues pounding me, I didn't pay much heed what I termed as 'a smart ass comment'.
I hardly conversed with this girl for the rest of the semister. Time moved on but that girl didn't fade away from my memory.
OK boss I liked her so what. What do you expect me, go & apologise to her. After six odd months of the instance, didnt appeal to me. It was out of the blue that I made ammends with her & gradually became pally. Soon it was apperent that I had a spark for her. But could this actually result into fire or it was just a buble waiting to burst. I could only contemplate the outcome.
By the time we became 'friends, it was time to say goodbye. It was becoming clearer to me day by day that she was the one who made my heart flutter. But then
what is love without being loved. I was clueless about her feelings. There was soo much that we still needed to do before I could prop up the question. Experience makes you wiser. When you propose the woman of your dreams, she is the one, the only one for you. The sense, the feeling of love should come from within your heart.
Then I got a move on to Mumbai. I thought that would the end of that. Call it destiny or sheer co-incidence I was posted in Delhi. Something, some where was unfinshed, I guess. Somehow we had not left on a very happy note. There was a kind of a cold war going on with no one willing to relent.
Its ironical, I keep thinking of her when she is not around. But when I am, her ravishing self spell bounds me. The sheer mention of her gives me goosebumps. The whole day I keep revering about her. She charms me, ignites my passion. My life has been given a new dimensional by her sheer presence. I want to excel, now just for myself but for
us.
'fusion'
I am baffled. If one thing women can do well, is to confuse. They change orientation as per their convenience. One day you would feel that you are the most special person on the earth, on others she may rebuke you like you never knew her. So a
re woman so heartless or if I were to put it bluntly mindless? Picture this:There is this girl I am virtually bonkers about. She very well knows it, though I haven't officially proposed her.
On the record we are friends. Before I prop up the question to her I wanted to get close to her, understand her better, make her feel special. It is a time consuming process, specially since I don't see her one to one often. It is very different chatting on the net or even talking ovet the phone; to seeing each other. For some strange reason I get mezmerised whenever I see her or even hear her. She has this magical affect on me that leaves me gasping. I have contemplated expressing my feelings to her many a times but it just didn't feel right from inside. I tell you, I am not shy or overtly obsessed about her answer. But she gives me absolutely confusing signals.
Let me illustrate further. We were conversing, it was going very well. I lost a bet, only to win a date with her. It was her idea, I was more than happy. It provided me with a great opportunity to get close to her. She threatned me of dire consequences if I dropped out. I wasn't going to miss it for the world, so I took a day off from office, only to be stood up by her. She didn't even courtsey to inform she was cancelling, let alone picking up her phone. Never the less, I didnt bother much. I would be lying if I said that I didnt feel bad. Its part of life I guess. Life doesn't stop, I didnt correspond with her further neither did she.
Time galloped ahead. I came & returned from Mumbai. One fine day I ran into her on the net. I played down the whole episode intentionally as if it was no big deal. But I made sure my point was put across. She duly apologised & I readily accepted. So, we fixed up another date. So far so good.
Bang as it was highly expected, she ditched me again. This time she was ready with another excuse. I had enough, just because I have feelings for her that does not mean I have pledged my self respect to her pity.
But again the soft corner in my heart, infact my whole heart wanted me to believe her. She is too innocent & sweet to hurt anyone. Her eyes, her dazzling smile, her charming self kept haunting me for the day. Then it helped I had a
heart to heart, intimate talk with her. It felt nice, it helped us bond closer than ever before. After a long time time this relationship was making some headway. I was excited about it. She shared for the first time her deep drawn feeelings with me. Infact for a change she was doing most of the talking & I was listening.
My honeymoon period was shortlived. From soaring high in the skies I was on ground soon & with a thud. It seemed the magic of the day had weared out. It was all momentary. The very next day I was just another guy for her. What the lady has in her mind, I have no clue. But as they say,
'Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.' I just hope it one of those times.
bam-bam-bam-bam-bambai
It feels nice to be back. After spending around ten odd days in Thane, a suburb of Mumbai, I have returned to
Delhi where my heart is, literally (no kidding) . Anyways in this blog I am just going to share some of the interesting incidents that happened with me in Mumbai. Read on to find out more
I had a morning flight from Del-Mum & just made it to the airport in the nick of time. Very well soon I landed at the Chatrpati Shivaji Airport in Mumbai from where I made my way to Voltas HRD Centre, Thane. A nice place with plush green lawns & wide open spaces which you won't find in Mumbai. Soon I was joined by my roomie, whom I nick named KDC. I met a host of new people & by the evening most of us had interacted & become quite pally. Then what we decided to utilise the time on hand & pay a visit to Mumbai. Our first stop was the Sidhi Vinayak Temple, acclaimed to be very soothing & pious place. We paid our homage to the allmighty & moved on.
The next in line was Bandstand, Bandra. Its a place where you have all the biggies of Bollywood. We enjoyed the seaside & spent some time enjoying the splashes of water. But the best was yet to come, we then moved to 'reclaimation ground'. I had till now only heard about it, now I saw the most expansive
'making out' spot in Mumbai. You could not find any space to sit by, for there were couples all over. What amazed me the most was the manner they were all huddled into each other, choosing to ignore the presence of others at the place, without a worry in the world just like honeymoon couples. Being a all guys group, we were seen suspiciously. After being stared once too often we decided that it wad the time to call it a day. What was to follow, I won't forget in a long, long time.
While returning back, I had my first tyrst with the
'great Mumabi local'. First time I was attempting to board a local in peak hours. It was like a storm, a blaze, thunder that pushed me in threw me out. People had lost their shoes, bags & even their balance. Thankfully I didn't lose track of myself. It was absolutely jam packed. I was standing on one foot for over an hour. But these are the few instances that are registered in your memory for eternity.
Back in the centre, all the trainees had arrived. It was then that I met this very charming girl , more of that later. Induction began on Monday, sharp 9:30. The opening address was delivered by our chairman & CMD, Mr. Cyrus Guzder. For a man of such high stature, he was pleasently very down to earth & unassuming. He personally met each one of us. That brightened the day for us.
The days to follow were hectic & jam packed with sessions & presentations. The top brass of the company explained to us how their business ran, the nitty-gritty'sof their respective business divisions. It was informative but more often than not an information overload. But that didnt deter us from having fun. We would often hang out after having our dinner, in the lawns outside or a in the nearby mall. In short, we had a gala time.
Coming to the crux of all discussion. It was our last day together before we were to leave for our respective regions the next day. After having a field day in Lonavala, we were returning back. Absolutely out of the blue we were got into an enthrailling discussion. '
The market sentiments are ripe, strike now' slammed one. '
Nopes the market is too raw, I need to heat it up more. When I make my move, it has to be a strike', I shot back. If you are at a complete loss as to what am I talking, read again. It was one hell of a debate, where we twisted 'n' turned all possible marketing concepts that would have put even the great Kotler to shame. Only our target was different.
I was wondering, why is it that there are always more than one suitors who emerge for a girl? They keep on fighting amongust themselves & someone else walks away with the booty. Well I literally saw history repeating itself, only this time I didnt let it. I held on to my cards & made my moves carefully.
The verdict is not out,
but by no means is it over, not until we meet again.
