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dizzy

Thats the word to describe my condition as of now. I have been under the siege of a virus infection leading to fever for almost a week now. But somehow thats not the only reason I feel so strange. Yes its very abnoxious kind of a feeling that I have. Its one thing to be in a bad state of health but to be in such a sombre state of mind, there has to something terribly wrong. Well, it is.

Its just that phase where irrespective of what do, it all seems to go wrong for you. On the face of it you are joyful but deep down inside there is something that makes you feel hollow. You can fake it t o the world but not yourself.

I am a dreamer, but just don't want to spend rest of my life planning to achieve my goals. Its time to work towards achieving those goals. But more I try & strive towards them, the further they seem to subside. 'Frustrated', thats what I am. You may have all the potential in this world but unless you are able to perform its of no dam use.

Even the slightest of success that comes my way turns out to be a mirage. Failures don't daunt me but the lack of success does. Unless I get on to the desired path which I know is going to take me to my destination, I would remain quirky & miserable.

This is my life & no one but me would determine its course. No one would dictate terms to me. I have fought my way through bad times, no reason why I can't do it again, with or without anyone.

posted by Shashank Jain @ 7:29 AM