my log

The world is round, see you around!

Seven years it has been, since I passed out of school. The one place which is etched permenantly in my memory. Here I made my first friends, had my first fight & even experience my first crush, along a spate of many firsts. So when I met my old school buddies it felt real nice. We managed a small gathering where all of us came together after a long time indeed. Wow! Had people changed. Some with complete makeovers, others seemed just as they were in school. Recalling instances from the days gone by, some mischevious others hilarious we laughed our heads off.

Now no longer in school, guys took it easy & shared what they thought were their closely guarded secrets. Yaah! I had a crush on her since the 8th grade. Now you don't lie, I knew you had the hearts for her. Even I liked him. It was all spilling out. Though we had a blast in the leg pulling session, one thing was clear. What until now we thought of as our own private concealed information wasn't that discreet after all. Though it wasn't exactly common public knowledge but people weren't completely clueless about it either. And why not after all its school, here such news spreads faster than jungle fire. You may not have the details but you know what's cooking & where.

While this revelery was going on, I wondered if anyone had any clue about my undercover operation. Naa! who would know when the girl herself didn't know? And who would have told her when I didn't. I was in for a shocker though, not only guys knew about it they had more than a vague idea about who the girl could be. No one was sure though. Hey it was just an infactuation, happens to all of us. Big deal! I have grown out of it.

Now, after all these years I saw this girl on a SNC. I visited her profile. We hardly spoke in the school so wasn't much of a suprise when she didn't reply back to my scrap. Don't bug her you idiot, I thought. But I don't know why I kept visiting her page again & again. Was it a really a bad thing to do? Who would have thought we would even see each other again? I reckon we could be friends. But whatever that was like million years ago, I have evloved since then.

One day, I was pleasently suprised seeing her name in my visitor's list. Soon my head was abuzz with ideas. Let me see, she probably noticed my name featuring regularly in her visitor list too. Since of late I haven't been in touch, that made her curious about me. Was this a clue? What if she thinks of me as some pesky idiot or a psychopath hell bent on troubling her.

Whatever it is, I really don't care. She is the first girl for whom I had the hearts for & for that she would always have a special place in my memory lane. What ever impression she might be carrying about me, all I want is for her to remember me as fondly as I do.

posted by Shashank Jain @ 9:40 AM 1 comments